Engaged?! WHHHATTTT!

anyways. now that i've gotten everyyyone's attention,
i just wanted to state that i had the best weekend i've had in a very long time.

This is what i needed, this is what cleared my head, got me stronger, and where i'd like to be.

I acedddddd my paper i wrote the other night too by the way.

Just this past wednesday i really thought Karma and life, and everything else was out to get me, really show me how shitty things can be.
but just like i've alllwayss told anyone who ever needed advice,
when you're at your lowest, the only place to go from there is up.

and i'm up. Not as up and perfect as i'd like to be. but, i will not complain at this time about things.
I'm still taking in all the positive i've got right now.

oh. i'm not engaged either. just wanted to get the attention this post deserves. ha. >.< sorryi'mnotsorry.

it's 6am where i'm at. and i've been up since 3am. within the past few hours i've felt the saddest, not angry annoyed pissed off letdown or whatnot, just truely sad that i've been in a while as well. but, it was expected and i just misjudged exactly how upset i'd be,

but its alright, i got this. I'm a strong person, i know that, and i'll hold it down over here for as long as i have to.. <3

i wish i could explain exactly what my weekends been like..
i'm glad the weekend went so perfect, so well, because a lot of unnecessary stress and bullycrap is going to happen i'm sure. and i'm not just talking about bullshit as in stupid dumb stuff, i'm also talking about bullycrap, the whole bullying someone because of something and its just crap.

bullycrap i tell ya. but it's alright. this girl doesn't care anymore.

I'm needing sleep in the worst way. I've been reallyyyy sleep deprived this past weekend from all the adventures. and i got class at 11am today. letsssgo 4 more hours of sleep.


<33 yesssiirrrrr.