pushing past you

" Back the fuck at you.. Now go back to not talking to me, it's been nice not feeling how you used to make me feel and realizing you weren't my friend at all. Just using me till something came along. And I was gonna make sure you left feeling good after that? Fuck no, fuck you.
You're fake and poisonous to those around you. And the honest truth, I don't care in what you say or believe it anymore.. The hooks you had in me that blinded me to anything but what you said are gone. And let me tell you, I'm truly happy you're gone. So just stay there.
And it's real easy to just block you from everything. So if you manage not to be you till my money (which was settled) comes in I'll pay you. But if not, your actions will continue to buy my stalling.. Cause I know my friends enjoyed the bar on the money I was ready to hand you the other night. I have no problem pushing you off anymore. You've officially relived me of guilt on that matter. Done trying to prove or do anything for you. So when I want, you'll get. Till then, C R fannies is hiring. Go live that dream"

because I need this as a strong reminder as to who you are. I huge slap to the face everytime I want to ever give you the benefit of the doubt, when ever I want to think youre just misunderstood and lashing out dur to being hurt.

I wish I wouldve done this before with the conversations where you told me that xbox was more important to you than my future or my life. or the conversation where you told me all about how you have needs and youll find them else where if I dont start fulfilling them.

you sir, are a piece of shit, and its you sir who is the fake one. you can pull punches when its just me, but the second othet people are around, you turn into a differe t person completely. are you afraid they'll find out how cold hearted and selfish you really are? because it's too late for that, everyone knows and theyre no longer playing your game.

you disgust me in ways I never thought were possible. im absolutely disgusted I ever let you even touch me, let alone get into my head the way you did.
you say I'm poisonous and whatnot, but last time I checked you were the one mentally abusing me with you "I have needs" bullshit.
Ive said it, ive screamed it, and ive typed it:
if you need to bribe or guilt your girlfriend into having sex or doing anything sexual,  then maybe you have a selfish problem.
you only seemed to give a shit about what you wanted and when you wanted it, not the fact I was having problems and was being pressured. and please, dont sit there and tell me you've changed when you pulled the same cards just a couple weeks ago.

i tried to leave you last June, band then in October. and Then I tried to leave in December, and then nonstop up until April when I finally did.
maybe that shouldve told you something...