Really bothered

I need to get the ffffuuuuccckkkk out of this town. Summer is always too long to stay here.

Im probably being super paranoid for no reason, but people here are shady, and fake as fuck.

And im not just saying that. I understand everyone is entitled to their own secrets, or dirty pasts, but people need to remember those things when it comes to wanting to talk shit on other people.

Like I said, I could be super beyond paranoid, but ive got every reason to be.

I guess im just not use to exes becoming "friends" or hanging out, especially right after a break up.

What makes it even worse is both hate me more than anything, for different reasons. But none that wasnt caused from their own issues. So now im stuck with the idea that theyre sitting around a living room, talking shit and swapping stories. Which would be fine, im not perfect, ive donr shitty things, especially to the one ex, and ive done some muthhaaafuckinnn crazy psycho girl things before. I own up to them, I have no intentions of ever appearing perfect to anyone.

What I dont want is all the lies thats going to fly during those "bitch about her" fests. And theyre both fantastic bullshitters, I know this first hand. The one could easily write a book about how to be a bullshitter.

I just hate how twisted stories get. I love when they get back to me, and theyre so skewed its ridiculous.

And on top of it, other bullcrap was added in. The ohsogoos bullshitter never ceases to amaze me, but actually does exactly what I figure he would do.
It disgusts me so much knowing these things. I love how apparently im the liar and fake, when ive been able to call every move ever made despite him saying it wasnt true.

People need to really realize who they are, if youre lying about almost every thing just to prevent people from judging you, or making people mad, then youre fake. Keeping some things quiet is fine, But when your whole life is a lie, dont sit there and try and pass the blame off on someone else. Especially someone who never did anythinggggg to you.

I care too much about what people think of me. And I know youre not suppose to, but at the same time I feel you should. Why would you want to go around and have people hate you or think youre a bad person? You wouldnt.
But whatever. There's so much exciting good going on in my life lately, that im really trying not to let the bullshit get in the way.

This town needs to go though. I realized today that ive got a veryyyy small few attachements here still, but I need to find new surroundings, with one of those new attachments I have to this town.

He's gotta come with, because I couldn't give him up.
Things are stupid exciting right now... cannot wait to see where things are headed.