Used?

Yes. You can describe me as "used", and I take no offence to that.

It's not my fault you used me time and time again, alwayd putting me in shitty situations.

But its okay, while I'm currently building myself up, with the help of a very wonderful man, you've got noone to fall back on, or to help you when you've got noone else.

That's the thing about a relationship, you cant use people, or allow yourself to be used. There needs to be an even pull from both sides. You cant demand someone respect and be there whenever you want/need them to be, without doing the same thing for that person.
And you sure as hell cant ask them to stick around time and time again when youre giving them absolutely no reason to.

Ive never really expected or demanded respect from my significant others. I think thats where Ive failed for so long. I give then my utmost attention and respect, I bend over backwards to do anything for them, and I wanted the same in return, but when they didnt or refused, I gave in and said "ya sure, dont worry thats okay." And then lowered my standards to meet something that they could give.

I was selling myself short.

Then again, a real man doesnt leave his woman begging for these things, or lowering her standards. It seems as if there's actually people out there who give attention, respect, and appreciation like I need.

Ive been feeling like the luckiest girl in the world lately.

Here's to a positive outlook on the coming semester, and finally not letting anyone drag me down.