I remembered something I thought I'd never forget.
Its just another reminder that I may not be that far in life, but im passed so much bullshit I didnt deserve.
Its another reminder that life is good, and no matter the shitty day im having, I'm happier than what I was.
I did not ruin your life. Not even a little bit. It was not my fault you were clearly spiraling and needed help. It was not my fault you got fucking plastered and started making an ass out of yourself and becoming unsafe. I was doing what a fucking friend, let alone girlfriend, should do. I was trying to keep things under control because not only were your parents there, but you wanted to be able to have more get togethers.
Your parents didnt deserve the things you said to them, and I sure as hell didnt. But im glad you ripped me apart, and screamed at me like you did. And even better when you started throwing beer cans. Because your friends finally saw that it wasnt me who was a controlling bitch.
And incase you forgot how you made it safely to bed that night? This life ruining controlling bitch assisted your ass to bed, and made sure to catch your tv and halfstack when you knocked them over. Also, the reason you didnt vomit all over yourself and your bed? I made sure to ignore your very foul language towards me and got you a garbage can.
And even after you demanded I leave, get the fuck out, and drunkenly refused to let me in bed, I made sure you fell asleep ayeokay by sitting on your floor and answering your phone texts that kept going off because your buddy was hammered and still wanted to party.
I may have done all that for you when I shouldn't have. But the best thing I did that night was grabbing my stuff and leaving. I didnt deserve to find out you were still lying and hiding things when I messaged your friend back to tell him you were asleep. And I sure as hell didnt deserve to be treated the way I was in front of everyone, let alone have to sit there and listen to you talk about sex with your ex.
Im so much happier these days.
I dont even know who I was back then or what was wrong with me. All I know is im so glad that night happened, because without it I really wouldnt be where I am.
And oh i didnt forget about memorial day either, I still havent forgotten I never finished thatttt post on here.
So fuck you and your morals,
Because from where I'm standing, you've completely lost who you are and you hate it.
Karma bitches.
