Watched You Disappear..

 moving forward,
But holding ourselves back, 
And we're waiting on something that will never come.
[I drink to much and don't believe in much of anything]

You're gone, gone, gone away
I watched you disappear
All that's left is the ghost of you.
There's nothing we can do
Just let me go, we'll meet again soon
Now wait, wait, wait for me..

this describes my life perfectly.

pretty much our first night together.
what a romantic gesture.

this book needs to be alice.
with a wonderland reference.

ohhellnaw.

please let march end soon

lessgo.

mylife

sleep.

i'm suffering from sleep paralysis.

after my episode last night


i dont ever want to sleep again.

i'm now terrified.





great. what else is new.

errday im tumblin.

furb.

See I don't know why you cryin' like a bitch
Talkin' shit like a snitch 
If you really didn't care
You wouldn't wanna share
Tellin' everybody just how you feel

Fuck what I did was your fault somehow
Fuck the presents, I threw all that shit out
Fuck all the cryin' it didn't mean jack
Well guess what, fuck you right back

You thought you could really make me moan
I had better sex all alone
I had to turn to your friend
Now you want me to come back

You questioned did I care
Maybe I would have if you woulda gone down there
Now it's over.


Fuck all those nights I moaned real loud
Fuck it, I faked it, aren't you proud
Fuck all those nights you thought you broke my back
Well guess what, your sex was wack

Rabbit Hole Jumping.

short. simple. notsweet.


unsure.


what's going on.

hating myself.

hating him more.

sabotaged.

never wanted shit like this.



i neeed someone.