Saturday, March 28, 2015

Disgusted

This blog does nothing but disgust me.
It's filled with various things since my first year at school back in 2012 when I was dealing with eddie.

At the same time though I'm happy it exists so I know exactly how well I bounce back from things.

I hate that everyone ive ever talked about I always believed the sun shined out of their ass, but also how even after some of thee worst breakups and things, I'm able to eventually pull my shit together and care like that all over again.

Sometimes I wonder if its fake or not "the real deal" but I always end up looking at it in the way that, I love everyone differently, and there's nothing wrong with caring for who youre with so intensely.
Im very proud of the things I've overcome, along with knowing im dealing well with things that still tear me apart.

Spring always leaves me feeling alive, once again I've survived another 'dark' season. Hopefully I can remind myself of this the next time I feel like opting out.

Wednesday, February 25, 2015

There's nothin here for me anymore

Now its been so long.

And I've realized I write only when im stressed and annoyed but not completely depressed.

I've been struggling alot lately and im starting to feel like my life direction is wrong. But I've come sooo far there's no way to turn around.